i was gonna go to bed early...

and then i ended up reading mylifeisaverage.com for 2 hours. plus i changed my facebook profile picture. and i talked to a boy for the first time really in two years--he's been out of the country serving a mission for his church. we decided that when i go back to my hometown for the christmas holidays, we're going to go on a date. i was one of the last girls from my home town that he took on a date before being gone for two years, and it was probably one of the most fun dates i had in high school. needless to say, i'm looking forward to getting to hang out with the kid again. the funny thing is, that since he's been gone from school for a while, we are now both at the same year academically, even though i'm a few years younger. it's cool to feel like you are as old as someone who always seemed to be just ahead of you.

today was a good day, dear blog. i woke up and had to shower in 10 second intervals because that was all the hot water was good for before turning cold, and my first class was canceled. it was nice, because i was becoming concerned that i was beginning to die of swine flu (i've had symptoms lately... including throwing up a few times monday). i took a nap on a couch at our student union building until my next class started. as that class passed i began to feel better. after that class ended, i sat and talked with a guy who has become a really good friend for an hour. then when i walked to the library to wait for a scholarship interview, it started to snow (woo!!). i sat by a window and didn't get hardly any work done because i just stared outside watching the flakes fall. i walked to my scholarship interview with my jacket hood on but my face turned up; snowflakes got stuck in my eyelashes. i couldn't help but grin ear to ear. i passed people on the sidewalk who were wincing and grimacing and looking anything but pleased, and i felt sad that they weren't loving the snow as much as i was. there are only 42 days until christmas. bring on the snow mother nature, bring on the snow!

you are my sweetest downfall

i have fallen in love with this song. it's by Regina Spektor. i love her voice! it is so enchanting. anyway, these are the lyrics.

Samson

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the sheets of paper lies my truth
I have to go, I have to go
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
He ate a slice of wonder bread and went right back to bed
And history books forgot about us and the bible didn't mention us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first, I loved you first
Beneath the stars came fallin' on our heads
But they're just old light, they're just old light
Your hair was long when we first met

Samson came to my bed
Told me that my hair was red
Told me I was beautiful and came into my bed
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
And he kissed me 'til the mornin' light

Samson went back to bed
Not much hair left on his head
Ate a slice of wonderbread and went right back to bed
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once

You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first

I'm listening to it over and over again right now. love love love it. I should be studying for a statistics test.... but really i'm just waiting for my roommate to come home so we can watch "white christmas", which i've never seen the end of and she hasn't seen any of it at all, so i'm very looking forward to it! maybe while i am waiting, i will put the clean dishes away so that we can load it with the dirty ones so that our sink isn't overflowing with dirty dishes. and maybe then i will be able to have a clean pan to make some soup in, cause i want to have some soup!!

i have a confession to make, dear blog. i have a crush on a man 10 years older than me. terrible, i know. but we spent an hour today after class talking about life and everything and i just really enjoyed it.

well, i'm going to try to get some kind of studying done for this test. wish me luck!

daylight savings!

means that though my body thinks it is 2 am right now, it is actually only 1 am. and in the morning, when it is actually 9 am, it will feel like 10 am. not too shabby, eh?

i've decided that i no longer want to be a "city girl". over the last year, i've come to love and embrace the country style of life. i had some exposure in the first few years of my life, having extended family living in some rural places. but now i get a lot of it, pretty much every day. i love country. i want to be a redneck!!

and now i'm going to bed because my body thinks it is 3 am.

maybe someday i will tell you my analogy of how telling boys you like them is like playing baseball.